When it rains, it pours

Today during rounds the doctors told me that they thought Lucas had some sort of infection, either meningitis or staph infection.  They had done a blood culture and it showed growth.  Luckily they had already started him on antibiotics and by the time they did a second culture, the growth had stopped.  I am just so disheartened that my little boy keeps getting these set backs.  I wish I could take them from him.  I would gladly trade places with him.  Why should a little baby have to go through this?  I am trying to trust that God knows what He is doing.  After all, God loves Lucas even more than I do.  But it is hard to understand why this is happening.

When we left the hospital this morning, Tom and I got into an accident.  Some guy in a big truck hit our car and ran us off the side of the road, almost into a light pole.  It tore our tires up and did some damage to our car.  We were both okay and I am so glad that Declan wasn't with us.  The guy that hit us didn't even stop.  He just kept driving.  I know the important thing is that we are okay.  I know that cars can be fixed or replaced.  But still, with all that we have going on, this is not what we needed.

The one silver lining today was this-

Miller's first bottle feeding!

He tolerated it very well.  The nurse told us not to expect him to take it, that most babies don't get the suck-swallow-breathe thing down until the 36 week mark but Miller was a champ!  He started off with 10 ccs in a bottle and did so well, they tried another 10 ccs.  He only got halfway through the second round of milk before he got tired but we are so proud of him.  He even burped twice!  So now he can have 1 bottle a day and then he will move up to 2 bottles a day when he gets the hang of it.  I really like the nurse on day shift today.  She encourages me to be very active in Miller's care.  Sometimes the nurses just do the things like take his temp, change his diaper, etc., but Keely always asks if I want to do them.  And of course, I do!  So today I took his temperature, then changed a very stinky diaper, changed the monitor on his foot that tracks his oxygen levels in his blood, gave him a bottle, and burped him.  I loved every minute of it.